Wohoo! Something new for the mundane life of mine!
Hello! I’m here with a different post today. š
I’ve been wanting to find a way to actually move my ass, feel better about myself and find a new hobby that includes some kind of moving. I played basketball for years but after suffering a leg fracture, university life, and more, I wasn’t able to continue my favorite sport, leaving me empty and aching for a move in my life. Moreover, the moment I tried to come back to the court, I realized how out of breath I was, and disappointed in myself.
I could’ve chosen something easier and something with less possibility of paralyzing myself, but hey if there are no risks in life, where is the fun? (Do not come after me because of this, I’m a mere adrenaline freak on a budget.)
So here, as a complete beginner who failed in rollerblading years prior, I’ve come to mumble about my process (if you can call it one).
Let me first talk about the skates I got. I bought these beautiful skates from Decathlon. I especially chose black because I knew these would get ruined very easily, considering that I’d be on the ground often. It was the best decision I’ve made because ruining something beautiful freaks me out, and black goes well with everything lmao. I promised myself that if I get any better by any chance, I’d gift myself an Impala, one of the most famous skate brands. they have so many color options and just looking at them makes me freaking happy. For now, I decided to stuck with sleek black ones at a cheaper price. I highly suggest you to give them a try, they are available around everywhere (especially Europe) and I didn’t use any other skates but these are pretty comfy though heavy.
The second thing I got myself was actually a protective gear set. The set is also from Decathlon, it has pair of kneepads, elbow pads, and wrist guards. I didn’t rush for the helmet because I knew I’d be inside most of the time (our garage and empty room in our home which was useless until a month ago) since it is now winter. I am thinking of getting a basic black helmet and keeping all my color options for my future Impala skates. I cannot tell you enough how many times I fell and still fall, so these things are made for a solid reason. Never go out without your protective gear because who wants a broken leg when you already had one? āļø
Before I start giving details about my process, I want to explain the reason I started rollerskating when I already had scrapbook journalling, watercolor painting, bullet journalling, digital drawing, and reading as active hobbies. My mind works in a very particular way. I usually destroy myself for not being “enough” at what I do, it has been like this for years now. And these hobbies don’t really require me to be the best of the best, I have taught myself to be content with just doing them. It took years for me to stop these intrusive thoughts and anxiety, and although I am better at controlling them, I still fight with them from time to time. This is exactly why I needed something more physical. You see, reading helped me to become the person I am today, drawing and painting helped me to see things differently and journalling helped me to order my thoughts in a -not always so- pretty way. My hobbies helped me to fight my own demons, giving me the will to live and move forward. My issue with my body image is nothing new, after I stopped playing basketball on a regular basis, I lost all my muscles and gained weight. I’ve been struggling to look at myself in the mirror and the fact that I am not doing anything to fix my brain and thoughts bothers me even more. I tried running, pilates, yoga, and all that but their slow pace doesn’t really intrigue me. Nevertheless, the main reason that I chose rollerskating is to accept myself as who I am, stop hating my reflection in the mirror, and stop feeling guilty about not doing anything. I want to appreciate the body I have and my health. I’ve been fighting for my health all my life but I am better and I am lucky to be alive.
Let’s talk about my process though. šŖ
Let me be honest and clear- THIS IS NOT EVEN REMOTELY CLOSE TO BE CONSIDERED AS EASY.
But for the god’s sake, it is the MOST AMAZING THING I’ve done for a good while!
I feel so refreshed, so happy that I can actually now move on them. Though I can only go straight and fall while trying to stop lol. I am making a video about my process for Instagram, so if you want to check it out, please do and let’s make fun of me together.
I am actually thinking of making a whole video for my channel and I’m glad that I’ve been recording videos here and there ever since I started skating. So this is my update. I can only go straight and fall as I try to stop, BUT I AM PROUD OF MYSELF FOR ACTUALLY STANDING!
see you until my next update š
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